Have you ever had the feeling that no matter how much you give, achieve, or become… you still feel unseen and unheard…?
That was Me…
My Story: The Defining Moments That Led Me Here
I did not become the guide for SuperConscious Awakening Coaches because I had a straight path.
I became this guide because I lived the transition myself.
Long before I had language for it, I was being led through a profound identity awakening — one that required me to leave behind who I had learned to be, enter the void of uncertainty, and uncover the parts of me that had been hidden from birth and locked away beneath fear, conditioning, and survival.
At the time, I did not understand what was happening.
I only knew that what once seemed stable no longer fit… and that I could not go back.
What I now call the path from Spiritual Coach to SuperConscious Awakening Coach was not something I could name then. But it was the path I was walking.
And it is the same transition I now help my clients make through The Complete Awakening System™.
Here are the first defining moments that shaped that journey:
October 2009
The Question That Changed Everything
My first defining moment came while I was working with a coach and sharing how underappreciated and unfulfilled I felt in my government career.
After listening to everything I had to say, the coach asked me one simple question:
“Why are you there?”
That question stopped me.
It made me realize that I had been tolerating a life that did not allow me to fully express who I was.
Within a month, I had my answer.
I found myself in yet another situation at work where I felt constrained, unseen, and unable to express myself fully. But this time, instead of adjusting once again or making myself smaller, I made a different choice.
I decided to start my own company and begin steering my life by listening to my heart.
Looking back, this was not just a career decision.
It was the beginning of my awakening.
December 2009
The Birth of the Business, but Not Yet the Full Becoming
A few months later, Crystal Clear Solutions was born.
I began building my business and marketing plans, drawing on more than a decade of strategic planning and operational management experience, along with the people-centered perspective that had always been central to how I led.
Even then, I knew one thing clearly: my work was about helping people understand who they truly are and express themselves more fully.
So while the business began on paper, something deeper was forming underneath it.
As I moved forward, I immersed myself in the study of both spiritual truth and business success, following an inner knowing that there was more to leadership, identity, and expansion than I had yet understood.
April 2010
Strengthening the Foundation
By the spring of 2010, I became affiliated with Mary Morrissey and earned my certification as a Life Mastery Consultant.
This added to the credentials I already held — including my CPA, MBA, and PMP — and reflected the bridge I was living even then: the integration of practical structure and spiritual understanding.
During this season, I went deeper into success principles, spirituality, universal laws, and the Law of Attraction.
At the time, I believed I was gaining tools to help others succeed.
Looking back, I can see that I was also being prepared for a much deeper journey — one that would require me to live what I was learning, not just teach it.
July 2011
Leaving the Old Life Behind
The second major defining moment came in the summer of 2011, when I left my six-figure government career to run my business full-time.
Earlier that summer, I had taken a course that led me to a powerful realization: if I was truly going to teach success and the Law of Attraction, I had to be willing to trust it myself.
It was time to let go of the old identity.
It was time to burn the bridges.
So I leapt.
But within a week of leaving my job, I was on my knees, crippled by fear, as I entered my first Dark Night of the Soul.
That moment changed everything.
Because even though I had left the external environment behind, the internal reality had come with me.
The same feelings were still there: unworthiness, instability, and the deep fear that I was somehow not enough.
The old pain had not disappeared.
It had simply lost its hiding place.
That was when I came face to face with a hard truth:
Wherever you go, there you are.
I was no longer blaming a job, a boss, or an institution.
Now I was confronting the parts of my identity that had never truly been healed.
May 2012
The Collapse That Exposed What Was Hidden
By May 2012, I felt like I was in a dark tunnel to nowhere.
I was generating some income, but it was not enough to sustain the standard of living I had once known. Eventually, I went through bankruptcy and foreclosure.
At the time, it felt devastating.
But looking back, I can see that this was not simply financial loss.
It was exposure.
Everything I had built my sense of safety around was being stripped away, and the void I feared so deeply was no longer avoidable.
This season forced me into a deeper reckoning with worth, identity, and what remained when the structures I depended on fell apart.
What I did not yet understand was that this dismantling was part of the awakening.
May 2014
The Search for What Was Still Missing
By 2014, I had rebuilt enough momentum to make over $50,000 in my business.
From the outside, that might have looked like progress.
But deep within, I knew something was still missing.
As a Law of Attraction mentor, my client base was growing slowly, yet I still carried the same deeper pain: feeling unseen, unheard, and misunderstood as I networked, marketed, and tried to grow my work.
I was moving forward, but I still had not fully found myself.
Then, in May 2014, I discovered Human Design.
That discovery opened another doorway.
By the fall of 2014, I began offering Human Design readings to some of my clients. I did not yet know where it would all lead, but I kept following what resonated and taking the next step in front of me.
One step at a time, the hidden parts of me were beginning to come into view.
January 2016
January 2016 — When Everything Fell Silent
By 2016, the client base I had spent years building began to disappear.
What once felt like momentum… was gone.
What remained was something much harder to face:
Isolation.
Silence.
And a level of aloneness I could not explain.
This wasn’t just a difficult season—it was a prolonged descent.
The Dark Night of the Soul returned… again and again… each time stripping away another layer of who I thought I was.
For over a year, I searched for answers—trying to understand what was happening, trying to regain traction, trying to “fix” what felt broken.
But nothing worked.
Because this wasn’t a problem to solve.
It was a transformation that required me to stop reaching outward… and finally turn inward.
At the time, it felt like I was losing everything I had built.
Looking back, I can see:
This was where my work was being forged.
April 2017
Meeting the Parts of Me I Could No Longer Avoid
By 2017, the Dark Night of the Soul had deepened to a level I could no longer navigate the way I had before.
This was no longer about business.
It was no longer about strategy, visibility, or even healing techniques.
It was about identity.
Around this time, I began working with deeper transformational tools and contributed to the book Heal Thyself, sharing my story of navigating struggle within my business.
But what mattered most wasn’t what I was doing externally.
It was what I could finally see internally.
For years, I had carried a story:
“My father never told me he loved me.”
And beneath that story was something deeper—
a quiet instability in how I saw myself…
how I felt myself…
how I held myself.
No matter what I achieved…
No matter how much I grew…
There was still a place within me that could not fully anchor.
What I came to understand was this:
The wound did not begin with him.
It formed because my focus had always been directed outward—
and I had never learned to look within for my own truth.
My father was not the cause.
He was a mirror.
That realization changed everything.
Because for the first time, I stopped trying to resolve my experience externally—
and turned inward
to meet myself directly.
Not conceptually.
Not spiritually.
But at the level of lived identity.
This was the beginning of a different kind of work.
Not fixing.
Not improving.
But integration.
From this space, I began developing what became my Inner Child Healing process—not as a technique,
but as a doorway into reconnecting with the parts of myself I had never fully seen, heard, or understood.
February 2019
Building the Framework… But Not Yet the Full Capacity to Hold It
By 2019, I had synthesized much of what I had learned into what I called the Unique Brilliance Blueprint.
It brought together everything I had been studying and practicing:
– Law of Attraction
– Human Design
– Inner Child healing
– Astrology and numerology
From the outside, it looked like I had found my system.
And in many ways, I had.
I was helping clients gain clarity, understand their gifts, and begin stepping into their message and their work.
But internally, I knew something important:
I could guide transformation…
but I had not yet stabilized it within myself.
There was still a gap between what I could access… and what I could consistently hold.
And that gap mattered.
Because it is the same gap my clients were experiencing.
June 2020
The Moment Safety Made Embodiment Possible
In 2020, during a deeply pivotal session with my mentor, something happened that had never happened before:
I felt safe… to love myself.
Not as an idea.
Not as an affirmation.
But as a real, embodied experience.
That moment changed everything.
Because for the first time, my system was no longer searching for validation, resolution, or confirmation outside of me.
I was able to meet myself… and stay.
From that point forward, my work shifted.
Integration was no longer something I was trying to achieve.
It became something I could live.
As I continued this process, something stabilized:
My identity aligned.
My internal fragmentation resolved.
And with that…
my authority held.
Present
The Awakening That Changed Everything
By 2025, everything I had been through began to converge.
Not as another breakthrough.
But as a profound, stabilizing awakening.
This was not the kind of awakening that comes and goes.
This was the kind that reorganizes you from the inside out.
The Dark Nights of the Soul that had once felt disorienting now revealed their purpose.
Every modality I had studied…
Every identity I had tried on…
Every collapse, every rebuilding…
They all connected.
And for the first time, I was no longer searching for myself.
I was fully met within myself.
What This Journey Revealed
What I came to understand—through experience, not theory—is this:
Awakening is not the end.
Healing is not the end.
Even integration is not the end.
The real shift happens when you can embody who you are… and hold it under pressure.
For years, I believed the work was about:
Finding my purpose.
Healing my past.
Building my business.
But none of those, on their own, created stability.
Because stability doesn’t come from what you know…
or even what you’ve healed.
It comes from what you can hold—consistently—when it matters most.
When I stopped seeking love externally…
and began embodying it internally—
aligned with my true identity—
everything reorganized.
My identity aligned.
My internal fragmentation resolved.
And with that…
my authority stabilized.
This is what defines a SuperConscious Awakening Coach.
Not the ability to access truth.
Not the ability to expand vision.
But the capacity to:
Lead through the void that vision creates—
without losing yourself inside of it.
Why This Matters For You
If you are here, you likely already know how to access truth.
You’ve done the work.
You’ve developed your skills.
You’ve supported clients.
And yet…
Something still feels like it shifts
when you’re under pressure.
That doesn’t mean something is wrong.
It means you are standing at the same threshold I once faced:
The place where your old identity no longer holds—
and your deeper identity is ready to be fully embodied.
This is the work I now lead through
The Complete Awakening System™.
Not to help you become someone new—
but to help you stabilize in who you already are.
You don't lose authority in calm rooms. You lose it in a moment.
When your work doesn't land, something within you may not be failing—something may be seeking to emerge.
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